A letter

A simple form of communication

Paper, Pen, Scribbles

I've been given the gift of gab,

Love the sound of my own voice.

Yet when you're near, I'm speechless

My heart wants to speak up, but can't

So here I sit.

Paper, Pen, Scribbles

So many questions to be asked

I'm afraid for you to know the answers

I'll try to figure it out myself

But in the end I end up talking to the echoes

I'll ask the questions someday, I just need

Paper, Pen, Scribbles

I wrote you a letter tonight.

Everything I've wanted to tell you.

Everything I've wanted to ask you.

Everything that tears me up inside

And in turn...i'll tear the letter up.

Then I'll mail you the ashes, sent in the wind

All I wanted to say in

Paper, Pen, and Scribbles.

I had a blog in mind. And as I was writing, I kept coming up with non sensical ways of saying what I wanted to say....so I turned it into some sort of free verse. I've been doing a lot of thinking.... A LOT of thinking. I wanted to express those thoughts to someone, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I'm sure you've had the same problem. Build up all your thoughts but can't seem to put it into words.

I do it a lot. I live inside my mind basically. So my advice to you if you ever need to say something, but can't figure it out? Write it down. On pieces of paper. Old school, I know. But it's a good way to collect your thoughts. For instance, my first letter I wrote? I rambled, but I did get a lot of what I needed to say out. So I'll just rewrite the letter into a more flowing form.

I first got the idea with a girl a while back...we'll call her "Jessica." I had things I needed to tell her, and I just couldn't do it. But I wrote a letter to her one night. I never sent it to her, but it gave me the courage to finally say what I needed to say when we talked. Maybe when I saw the thoughts in writing, it made more sense to me. Gave me confidence to "use my words."

The letter(s) I wrote tonight....the certain someone will never see them. But it was better than bottling it all up inside. Part of me felt like, I at least tried to communicate it with her. Obviously, if I had actually said it to her, it probably would've been more helpful. Baby steps people.

If you ever find yourself confused, take a minute, and write down what you want to say. It's like "thinking before you speak." Whether you ever intend to actually convey that message to your certain someone. (Spouse, gf/bf, siblings, boss, etc, etc) My advice....writing it down we'll get you one step closer to that goal.

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